Watch: Ellie Goulding reveals why she chose to keep her pregnancy a secret
Ellie Goulding has revealed the reasons she decided to keep her pregnancy a secret.
The singer, 34, welcomed a baby boy, Arthur, with her husband, Caspar Jopling, earlier this year, but only chose to reveal she was expecting a baby when she was 30 weeks pregnant.
Appearing on Lorraine, the new mother revealed that lockdown had presented her with the chance to get to know her body and how it was changing during pregnancy.
"For every new mum it's daunting and I realised I had an opportunity to just be by myself and get to know all these new feelings and hormones and all that stuff," she told the breakfast presenter.
"And I just did it by myself and just took it day by day, it was this chance for me to just understand what was going on with my body, with my mind and it was really nice.
"It was sort of quiet, private time, but obviously the secret's out now," she added.
The new mum went on to discuss motherhood and reveal that she is "open and honest" about her parenting journey in her new book Fitter, Calmer, Stronger.
"I'm learning something every hour of the day, with just being a new mum and navigating it," she explained.
"It just kind of came and changed everything and you have to adapt to it, but it comes with its challenges, it's a very day by day thing."
Watch: Ellie Goulding: 'I had debilitating panic attacks'.
She also described how she's managing to juggle her new role as a mum with her career as a singer, describing it as "challenging".
"It's tough, you know, because I'm now a working mum and I went back to the studio maybe three or four weeks after I had him. So it's challenging," she said.
"But I think people are way more understanding and supportive now, especially in the music industry – my record label, my management, my friends, everyone has been incredible and so supportive and brilliant, so I'm very grateful for that."
The juggle has also made her appreciative that she was able to take some time for herself while expecting her son.
"It was definitely a blessing that I got that time to have a calm pregnancy, just be in nature... And take it all in," she explains.
The Starry eyed singer went on to add that motherhood had made her determined to hang onto her sense of self in her career, while still being there for her son.
"My plan was to be the best mum I can be and also keep my identity in my work and I've managed to do that so I'm feeling good about it," she added.
Last month, the singer revealed how she'd struggled to cope with the intensity of her rise to fame and suffered intense panic attacks during her twenties.
She confessed she felt like she had been "strapped to a space shuttle" after her debut album Lights went straight to the top of the album charts in 2010 and she won a Brit Award.
Goulding wrote that her schedule of TV appearances, awards ceremonies and "sometimes flying to three countries in a day" caused her severe strain.
"It was a dream come true, but brilliant things can also be detrimental, and by my mid-20s I was suffering debilitating panic attacks," she said.
She admitted the incidents "became kind of routine" and that it was a while before she made the "life changing" decision to pursue cognitive behavioural therapy, commonly known as CBT.
In her new book, Goulding also explains that her love for exercise and working out has helped her to conquer some of her problems with anxiety.
She said: "I get social anxiety when I walk into a room and everyone looks at me. But when I work out, it gives me confidence that helps with my anxiety."
Goulding has previously confessed that she has become increasingly introverted during the COVID-19 lockdowns and will have to pluck up her courage to return to the stage.
"There is always a misconception that if you are a performer and you can perform to all those people, that you must be a very confident, extrovert person. But actually I am the complete opposite. I think also this time has made me even more so," she told BBC Breakfast.