Mo. Mom Allegedly Filmed Herself Repeatedly Smothering Infant, Said She Felt 'Adrenaline Rush': Police

Emma Rigdon, 20, allegedly texted an acquaintance, "I really wanna kill him but I don't want to go to jail"

<p>St. Louis City Justice Center</p> Emma Rigdon

St. Louis City Justice Center

Emma Rigdon

A Missouri mom was arrested after she allegedly filmed herself abusing her infant son.

Emma Rigdon, 20, is facing two counts of abuse or neglect of a child in connection with the April 15 incident.

According to a St. Louis police probable cause statement, Rigdon was at the 1200 block of Warren Avenue when she allegedly pinched and slapped the boy’s leg and then placed her hand over his nose and mouth, “causing [her son] difficulty in breathing and to flail his arms and legs.”

Rigdon allegedly recorded the incident on video and sent it to an acquaintance, per the statement.

Police said Rigdon made a second video that allegedly showed her placing a blanket and her hand over the victim’s mouth, causing the infant to cry and try to grab the blanket. She also sent that video to an acquaintance.

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"IDK when I do that, I feel happy like adrenalin (sic) rush," she allegedly wrote in a text message, per the statement. "I be stopping right before he dies. Last time he was blue."

"I really wanna kill him but I don't want to go to jail so. It's unfortunate. He’s just gonna have to pay for his existence," she allegedly wrote.

Rigdon was denied bond and a preliminary hearing is scheduled for May 21.

Her attorney could not be reached for comment.

If you suspect child abuse, call the Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-4-A-Child or 1-800-422-4453, or go to All calls are toll-free and confidential. The hotline is available 24/7 in more than 170 languages.

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