Armie Hammer reflects on being 'shut out' of Hollywood: 'Grateful for every single bit of it'

“I’m actually now at a place where I’m really grateful for it because where I was in my life before all of that stuff happened to me, I didn’t feel good."

It's been three years since Armie Hammer was accused of sexual abuse, assault, and cannibalism, and he's reflecting once more on the allegations, saying that he is "grateful" for everything he's gone through since.

Hammer agreed to appear on friend Tyler Ramsey's Painful Lessons podcast when Ramsey asked him to "be of service" by telling how he got through essentially losing everything in the wake of his scandal.

<p>Todd Williamson/E! Entertainment/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty</p> Armie Hammer in 2020

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Armie Hammer in 2020

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“Whatever it was that people said, whatever it was that happened, I’m now at a place in my life where I’m grateful for every single bit of it,” the Social Network actor said.

“I’m actually now at a place where I’m really grateful for it because where I was in my life before all of that stuff happened to me, I didn’t feel good," he continued. "I never felt satisfied. I never had enough. I never was in a place where I was happy with myself where I had self-esteem. I never knew how to give myself love. I never knew how to give myself self-validation but I had this job where I was able to get it from so many people that I never had to learn how to give it to myself.”

Though Hammer has been relatively quiet about his scandals, there's been plenty of discussion around him, including a 2022 documentary, House of Hammer, delving into his family's history of violent men. He previously sat for an interview with AirMail last year.

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Hammer became embroiled in controversy earlier in 2021 after he was accused of sexual misconduct by several women, who shared messages allegedly sent by the actor pertaining to BDSM and cannibalistic desires. As a result, Hammer — who called the allegations "bullsh--" at the time — was dropped by his agency and various TV and film projects, including the 2022 rom-com Shotgun Wedding and Godfather series The Offer.

Regarding the most attention-grabbing accusation — the cannibalism — Hammer expressed incredulity. “People called me a cannibal," he recalled. "Like I ate people! What?! You know what you have to do to be a cannibal? You have to eat people!”

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As for the sexual assault allegations, Hammer compared it to a "neutron bomb" going off in his life," which led him to seek treatment in a program. Hammer said he was getting so much hate that there were "a lot of times" when he thought he couldn't "take this anymore.”

"I was standing at the shore and I swam out really far and just laying there..a half-assed suicide attempt," Hammer explained. "But I thought I couldn’t do that to my kids.”

While Hammer's Hollywood career is, in his words, "nowhere now," he plans to write a screenplay in an attempt to create in his "own sandbox."

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