Sienna Miller Is 'Proud' of How She Bounced Back After 'Chaos' Surrounding Jude Law Relationship

"It makes you go completely mad," Miller said of public interest in her relationship with Law during the mid-2000s

Sienna Miller is reflecting on the media frenzy that surrounded her while she dated her ex-fiancé Jude Law.

While Miller, 42, appeared on the May 23 episode of SiriusXM's This Life of Mine with James Corden, the actress described media interest in her relationship with Law, 51, as "just the most surreal experience" after they began dating while working on the 2004 movie Alfie.

"It was like that. Every single day was like that and it's so surreal to look back and imagine or even to look back sometimes and see pictures of the amount of people that were there in my life all the time and I don't know what that — I do know what that does to you," she said, after host James Corden recalled seeing Miller at a bar in London around that time, surrounded by paparazzi as she tried to leave.

"It makes you go completely mad, which is ideal for them," she added. "The more you spiral, the better it is in terms of selling papers and that English thing of just wanting to tear people down and it felt so celebratory and I was also so madly in love and it was in many ways the most exciting moment."

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Alfie came just three years after Miller first began acting for the screen; she and Law began dating in late 2003 after meeting on the film's set and got engaged on Christmas Day in 2004. The actress wound up calling off the engagement after news of Law's affair with his children's nanny Daisy Wright broke in 2005; the former couple ultimately broke up in 2006, but they later dated again from 2009 to 2011.

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"I just started working and I was in a big film and in love with this idol and very, very happy, but the flip side of it was so dark so quickly," Miller told Corden, 45, during the new interview. "You learn so much about yourself through that experience, but I feel very lucky to kind of still be here, which sounds dramatic."

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"I think that it can incur just madness and chaos. It is chaos," Miller said after Corden asked her to elaborate on surviving an extensive period of fame and media coverage. "You are dealing with aggression and violence and you are a piece of prey and you're being hunted every day, so you are paranoid."

"It was just an ouroboros of kind of mess, and then, you know, a lot of chaos personally with our relationship and I think everything fed into itself and it just became this very unmanageable energy and I see other people who went through it, and didn't kind of come out the other side as well, so I'm quite proud," she added.

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